explain this cage

i don't think i understand things so much anymore. i mean, i realize that i'm in a good place.. but for some reason it doesn't seem good enough for anyone else.

i know being just content isn't something i should "dwell in" so to speak, but i'm happy where i am. happier than i've been in a while. and yet... i feel like i'm this huge disappointment to anyone and everyone, and i'm tired of feeling as if i can't be good at a damn thing. i'm just failing. i'm terrible, it seems. but, not enough so that it effects me. as in, i'm at the point where regardless of whether or not i feel like people are disappointed in my life choices, i don't... i don't care enough.

i've made these decisions on my own, i've carved out my own life. is it entirely what i dreamed of, no. but am i happy with a job, a house to live in, an amazing family and great friends? yes. yes i am.

there isn't anything else i really want right now.

at all.

so vibes get the fuck off my shit. i'm tired of feeling you creeping in, i'm happy, i'm smiling, and i don't need all of that.

i don't.

thanks.

-aleey.