will i lost my dignity? will someone care?

haha, like i have dignity. ...or shame.

i can't remember who it was, but i was recently talking with someone who equally has no shame. i think it was the guy last night. whose name i don't remember. uhuhuh. he was with reid and i think another guy whose name i don't remember. so, yeah. ha?

i'm so exhausted. i think. i finally got to sleep today; courtesy of ms. cyndi. i got to school around nine and just... passed out on her bed. for about four hours. which is good. i needed it. and meghan's coming to get me from my house later today, and then we're going to see CJ's band. who knows. maybe it'll be more awesome than it already can be.

i have to text manny later, to let him know i won't be able to make their rehearsal since i'm going to an actual gig. which makes me sad, i haven't seen marcus and cos in awhile. and i haven't met their new band member yet. the uh, bassist. yes. bassist. it'll be fun to meet him i feel. but, gig tonight! cj's band! at... uh, adelphi...? yes.

my brain is so frazzled. i'm on overload.

i saw suckerpunch last night. significantly terrible. yet great, simultaneously. i have to admit, i don't know how i'd felt about it if i'd gone by myself. but having corey on one side and cyndi on the other was what made it great. things we saw in the film:

matrix
big daddies (bioshock reference)
zombie nazis (so, call of duty mixed with L4D)
gundams
booster swords
final fantasy xiii references
inception (it was a dream, in a dream. not kidding.)
moulin rouge (which i still haven't seen)
black swan

i think there were more things in it, i just can't recall them...

i just have to say that corey nelson (aka brocules) is one of the most amazing, smart and helpful people ever. he and hobbit always make me feel better about anything i'm going through. not that i'm going through anything particularly trying, but, yes. it'll be interesting watching my life move on.

sigh.

my head hurts. i still haven't eaten, but i'm not terribly hungry (nor was i particularly interested in the student center's offerings...) so now i'm just tired all over again. i hope i stay awake tonight. i should wear something more gig-friendly. maybe i'll wear that cute dress i got.

ehhhh. maybe not.

i want to get asked out on a real date. that's all i kind of want right now.

but whatever. i think i need to stalk wil some. i haven't heard from him/seen him in months, and it's not fair. nor is the fact that, despite the fact that tomi and i attend the same damn school, i never see her either. at least they see each other, right? but lesigh. i must must must see them soon.

i'm sort of chilly here in the lab. and bored.

and writing a play for class. that i have no inspiration for. my brain is having a hard time comprehending a lot.

so, rawr.

exhausted! hungry! things that must be remedied!

sigh! go listen to jaymay "gray or blue" asap. it's beautiful.

-aleey

oh, remember.

smile. you're never fully dressed without a smile.

(does that imply that if you're naked and smiling, you can be considered fully dressed?)

(i can hear cyndi in my head saying "aleey... aleey stop it. you're thinking way too much about this.)

DONE NOW BYE.